The greatest gift of all ~ Love

20th February 2008, Wednesday, the night my mum departed from us…

8pm - We are still chatting about her medical report the next day and arrangement for the ‘Yuan Xiao" dinner at my uncle’s house too.

10.30pm - After the news from CH 8, I went for my shower while she was lying down resting on her sofa.

11pm - When I came out from my shower, I realised that she was sitting on the sofa falling asleep. While trying to talked to her, I realised that there is no response from her. Thinking that she might had fainted again. I tried to wake her up. I shake her and raise my voice to wake her … no response again… her hands are cold. I put my finger on her nose trail, there was no breath. She was gone!

I looked for my dad and called the ambulance, she was confirmed and declared dead.

Shocked is the word that I can used to describe how my family felt at that moment. A moment ago, my dad and I were still talking to her… the next moment she was gone.

At least she died peacefully in her sleep without any sign of struggle.
At least she had ended her long suffering fighting against cancer.

I grieved for her dismissed …
I know no matter how hard I cried… how much I missed her, she will not be back

I missed you mummy and I love you lots lots!
You may be gone but you love in my heart.

Heard the news of 沈殿霞（肥肥)! death this afternoon. Can’t help but feel heavy hearted cos’ it reminded me of my mum’s condition. My mum is getting worst nowadays… She fainted very easily and very frequent too. She is more weak and don’t have any appetite. Just over the past 3 weeks, she had 4 packets of blood transfusion already. Doctor suspect that she may have internal bleeding. Awaiting for test result currently.

I pray that God will preserve her days and that His grace is more than sufficient to prolong her life to see the desires of her heart being fulfill and that she will experience many joy, happiness and warmth for the days that she has with the loved one.

Be it good times, bad times, happy or sad, emotionally up or down, compliments or offenses, affirmation or discouragement, etc… our walk in lives is always a walk of faith.

So why not fight a good warfare that we will win the race than let our emotions, feelings, mindset causing us to lose half of the battle.

To all who are out there, let’s all fight a good fight of faith that we can win and glorify God. Amen!

I had a busy CNY this year. went for visitation after visitation from day 1 to day 3. Tired but yet enjoy the time I have with my uncles, aunties, cousins, friends.

CNY Eve: Went to my uncle’s house for reunion dinner. For the oast 2 years, we had all went to his house for reunion instead as my mum not able to cook for us anymore. As usual, we had a BIG GREAT FUN ENJOYABLE FEAST. From BBQ to Sukiyaki to traditional steamboat. Hahaha…. its really ALL-U-CAN-EAT lor …

Day 1: Woke up in the morning and have vegetarian meal for breakfast with my relatives. Then came my relatives from Indonesia and Malaysia in the afternoon. My dad’s cousins came too… the house was packed with people the whole day. Steves came in the evening and all my relatives are around to have dinner at my place. I believe that this will be one of the most stressful dinner for him. Hahaha … 2 of my aunts purposely choose the ‘chairman’ seat for him at the dining table and they started to asked him questions to find out more about him and tease him too. After that we went for movie at Bugis. Nice, funny and heart warming movie by Stephen Chow — CJ7!

Day2: Went to Chyi’s house at around 2pm then proceed to Steves house at 4.30pm and have dinner with all his relatives. It was my turn to get to meet all his uncles, aunties and cousins :p After that, we went to steves’ secondary school mate’s house for our 2nd round of dinner at around 8.30pm. Can’t believes I had been eating and eating for the whole day.

Day 3: Have my evening meeting friends and have dinner. A good time of sharing too though certain thigns had changed

Day4: Sun service at Expo. Lunch with cg. Attended Cong’s grandma wake. Went Suntec to collect my free gift - A Samsonite Luggage bag. Nice nice wor… Have dinner and then back home to rest.

Thank God that I do not have to work on Mon as company will be close for CNY,
Hmmm… hope I can have the time to watch my Stardust dvd … :p

The choice that we make will ultimately affect the route to our destiny. Not many have the courage to make the right choice in order to walk the right path. Instead many choose to avoid by taking the easier route thinking that they have a less responsibilities and can enjoy the life that they want. Is is the case? Only ourself will know the answer. Is your choice the best choice?

We bear the consequence base on the choice we had made.