The greatest gift of all ~ Love

Sun has always been one of the person who has really inspired me alot. Everytime I am face with a challenge or difficulty and feel like giving up, she will be the person I will look upon as an example. This is because what I had gone through is far less comparable to what she had gone through. The sacrifice she had made, many things that she has to give up, the negative reports she recieved, she managed to pull them through all because she understands that they are all for God’s Kingdom purpose. I believe non of us can feel as much as and understand as much what she had gone through as God would be towards her.

Sun JIA YOU! You are my inspiration and model example.

Thank you for being such a blessing and spreading God’s love around the world

For the longest time, I would always desire for my parent to get saved and know Jesus.
I had been asking God how and what can I do to share with them the good news and that they will be open to recieve as well. At times, I will feel discourage and lack of faith to believed in ther salvation as it just seems so hard due to their own belief. Whenever I shared about god’s goodness, my mum will say that all gods are the same. When good things happen at home, I would say that becuase Jesus is a good God but she will say that her god protect the family. Haaa … As for dad, he will always say, talk to mum about this and leave me out.

I know I serve a Great God with nothing is impossible to Him. I believed that one day my family will get save. But when looking at the situation, I will get disheartened again.

On Sunday service, when Carola led us to worship and we came to the bridge, we sang ” Harvest, Harvest, Harvest, I can see the Harvest … ” I caught in a vision of many people entering into the Kingdom of God and worshipping God fervently. Suddenly out of the crowd, I saw the face of my mum and dad raising up their hands worshipping God. Immediately, I wept. I cant help but felt encouraged and touched as I know God showed me this vision so that I will have the faith to hang on and trust Him for the harvest to come as long as I dont give up.

I will not give up sowing into my parent’s lives to meet their needs. To be the daughter that God wants me to be at home so that I will be a blessing to them. I believe that as long as I do what I can in Christ Jesus, He will do the rest for me.

I thank God for the vision and His faithfulness.

Dear Lord, I pray that you will keep my mum in your hands and prolong her life so that she will get to know you. I trust and believe in You for the harvest to come and in Jesus’ name for all these will come to pass so that my dad too will be saved. Amen!

It was another stressful and tough Saturday. Mum’s condition got worst today. Me and my dad dont understand what is the cause with this sudden change in her condition.

Mum was in a constant semi-conscious condition today. When we try to talk to her she cant response to us. Feed her with food, she cannot swallow them, so we feed her with milk instead. Even drinking a milk which took less than 5min, took us almost 25 minutes to feed her. She was so weak that she lost her mobility. When my dad and me tried to carry her, she did not have the strength to stand and will keep slipping down. Hence, I went to bought her a wheelchair in the evening.

Dear Lord, please strengthen my mum and give her energy to go through this time. Thank you Lord for my mum, let her enjoy the time she has with the family despite of her condition to fill her with Your love and peace. I pray for her salvation and that you will take care of her health. Bless my dad with good health too and give him the strength and energy to take care of my mum.

Eunice, James, Audrey, Cindy and Ally came to my house today to visit my mum. Think it is good to have visitors so that the house wont be so quiet and there is company around to fill the house with some laughter and warmth. They prayed for my mum before they left. I really want to believe for mum’s salvation and through the visit she will see the love of God more in her life.

Dear all, thanks for sacrificing your holiday and make tiime to sow into my mum.

I stayed at home whole day today. I spent my lunch together with mum. Feel so sad seeing her having problem taking the spoon and chopsticks to feed herself. I helped her with her food. I tried to hold back my tears when I try to feed her. This is the very first time I help her with her food. Mayb for the past few weeks since she had started her chemo treament again, I did not really get the chance to sit with her and spend quality time with her. I just feel so sad and hurt and cant help feeling sorry that I had actually neglected her by showing her more love recently.

I helped her with her medicine, to prepare her garment for her to change, had dinner with her and dad together. While helping her to prepare garment to change, seeing her having trouble to unzip her trouser, I just feel so helpless for her. I try to hold myself back seeing her feeling so weak. Finally I cant control myself and went to the toilet and broke down.

Think this is the first time that I really avail myself for her, really have the whole day for her and be with her.

I am sorry mum if I had always neglected you and take you for granted be it when you are in good health or when you are sick now.

I had took my dad for granted too. Thinking that it is easy to take care of mum. Today, I realised that to see your love one getting sick and yet have to have the courage to take care of them and be strong is such a struggle from within. You have act strong and be as normal and cheerful as usual so that the sick person will not be affected emotionally and yet inside your heart you cant help but feel sad and painful.

Lord, I pray that you will bless my mum with peace and happiness despite of her condition. That she will see love and warmth in the family. Dear Lord, I pray that you will bless my dad and give him good health too. That you will protect my household and my whole house will be saved. Amen!